Shifting Directions

A Time to Reflect –

The past week marked Damon & I’s 5th Wedding Anniversary. To celebrate, we vacationed for a week in Park City, Utah. We’d never been to Utah before, but had heard good things, so we decided it sounded like a fun adventure. And looking back, it was everything we’d hoped for and more. Fond memories have already formed and etched themselves into our memories.

As anticipated, trails were hiked, walks were taken, museums visited, the downtown explored, restaurants dined, and many movies were watched. However, something I had not envisioned happening on this vacation occurred: time and life slowed, and I finally reflected…on everything.

Utah Vacation

On Life: A Puzzle –

Life has been crazy. And I’ve been thinking that and saying that for quite a while now, but I didn’t realize for how long…OVER A YEAR! Let me repeat that, life has been crazy for over a year. What the heck?! That is far too long. I was going to do a whole rundown on why life has been crazy, but honestly…it was getting too long, so I just stopped.

It’s been over a year of new this, and new that, different this, and different that. Some bad, and some good. Some awful, and some great. It’s been a steady flow of never-the-same, which has made getting into a new routine nearly impossible. And finding a new normal feel ever elusive.

And that’s why I was so surprised, intrigued, and relieved when I began to reflect on everything during our vacation. I hadn’t even realized it was something I needed to do, let alone how badly I needed to do it. Turns out ‘take a step back and look at the big picture’ is some really good advice!

When I took a step back, I began to piece together everything to find out why my life has felt crazy for over a year. And to be honest, it put me at ease, because until then it felt like something was wrong. Like there was a problem in my life that I couldn’t pinpoint. But really it was just an overwhelming culmination of everything that had piled up. Figuratively, instead of leaving puzzle pieces heaped up in a pile, I took the time to sort through and solve the puzzle.

Utah Vacation 3

On Dreams: Renewed Hope –

On the flight back from Utah, I couldn’t help but think about bygone dreams I had once pondered. The reason? Because at one time in my life I had dreamed of becoming a pilot. During that time, I remember sitting in the backseat of my parents’ car and looking up into the big, blue sky, imagining how exciting life would be as a pilot. Soaring through the air to new and unknown locations.

At another time in my life, I had dreamed of becoming a pastry chef. I wanted to own my very own bakery, decorated pink and white with a Parisian flare…of course! I would imagine baking cakes of all different sizes and flavors, each adorned with its own custom decorations.

After I thought of these memorable, bygone dreams, I couldn’t help but wonder where I’d gone wrong. I could’ve become a pilot, or a pastry chef, but for some reason or another…I didn’t. And when I think about it, I think the main reason why neither came to fruition was mostly because of timing.

I was too young to become a pilot, so that dream faded. And I felt pressured to pursue a more “traditional” field of study as I graduated from high school, so my dream of becoming a pastry chef was slashed from the list.

It was then, as I looked out the plane window feeling dismayed, that I realized although two of my dreams were gone, one dream—longer lasting than either of the previous—remained with the possibility of becoming a reality. I won’t tell you what the dream is, because where’s the fun in that? But I feel hopeful that my old dream has some spark left in it. And with some time, energy, and attention will be renewed, brimming with possibilities.

I gotta say, it feels good to have a dream again, something to hope for and strive towards. Something that allows limitless possibilities, and unknown opportunities, but mostly something that will allow me to live my best life…a life focused on doing something I truly love.

Utah Vacation 1

On Career: Moving Forward –

You might be thinking…wow, sounds like blogging isn’t what you want to do with your life. And to that I have to say: I’m still not sure. However, I am sure I want to alter the focus and shift the direction of the blog. Even though I’ve only been blogging for three months, I’ve already come to realize which aspects of blogging I do and do not like.

And acting accordingly, the blog will now be focused on the aspects I like, which I believe have the most potential for my personal and professional growth. In no particular order, the categories are:

  1. Art + Design
  2. Writing
  3. Process work

By making these changes, I am hoping to allow myself more time to focus on larger scale, outside projects with longer timelines. (Which includes working on my renewed dream I just mentioned.) In the end, I’m just trying to cut out the noise and the busy work, and instead focus on the areas that I believe have the most potential to allow me to live a life focused on doing something I truly love. What that something is…is still to be determined. Or better yet, a work in progress! (Oy. Life, dreams, and career…am I right?)


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